"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God. For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.
What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? As it is written,
“For your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:18-25;31-32;35-39
Today, I don’t FEEL like a conqueror. I look around and I don’t see much that leaves me feeling victorious. I do see a lot of tribulation, a lot of distress and a lot of death. I see and hear groanings and the sound reaches my ears and causes me to weep. The times leave me tired, wanting reprieve and thinking, “Jesus, it is all too much!” And scripture affirms my suspicions.
Paul, in his letter to the church at Rome, addressed the reality that we all face in suffering. The first part of chapter 8 acknowledges the suffering of this present time that covers the earth from the depths of creation to the depths of man’s soul. He acknowledges the inward groanings that we all feel as a result of our own sin and the sin cursed world that we live in. These groanings are a result of the pains that come from sin but also a longing within us that says, “this cannot be all there is, this is not the way it is supposed to be”.
In times of plenty, in times of joy and prosperity, we don’t meditate on such weighty matters. We skip through our days and rest with peace at night but in hard times, times of suffering and death, when the days drag on and sleep eludes us, we plumb the depths of hard questions. It is in these hard times we need strong Jesus.
The last two weeks I have found myself at the bedside of my dying grandmother, embracing a woman who lost her second child, beside a friend as she received the news that a loved one had passed away unexpectedly, counseling a friend dealing with unrelenting anxiety and just a few days ago hearing the news that another family had lost their only child just one week before Christmas. What in the world? Jesus, what in the world?
What shall we say to these things? Indeed, what shall we say to these people? Isn’t that always the question we ask ourselves? “What do I say to them”? As I was reflecting on all of this, I thought, “Lord, these are hard times! And as quickly as I thought it, the Holy Spirit answered, “Yes! Hard times call for strong Jesus!”
Not literally the physical strength of Jesus, although He is all-powerful, but strong preaching of Jesus! Every single day, we need strong Jesus! We need the strength of the truth of His gospel that says that we are ALL sinners and that we are ALL separated from the love of God and that we are ALL under the wrath of God because of our sin. But God! My favorite statement in all of scripture! But God! He did not spare His own Son. Two of these families lost children. God knows what it is to lose a child! But not just to lose a child, He GAVE a child.
At Christmas we are familiar with the verse out of Isaiah, “Unto us a Child is born, unto us a Son is given” (Is. 9:6) God gave us His Son that He might carry our sorrows and bear our griefs (Is. 53:3-4). At the cross, Jesus bore the weight of our sorrows and our griefs. He took the heaviness of heart, the pain of every tear and the crushing blows of death for us. But, He didn’t take them FROM us. Inwardly, we still groan. We still experience the heaviness, the tears and death in order that we might understand the fullness of Emmanuel, God with us.
There is an irony that we should be touched by so much death and sorrow in a time when the world is celebrating Christmas. Our Savior came, not just to be God with us but He came to ultimately be a Savior for us. This is the message of Christmas. The rest of Romans 8:32, from the New King James says it this way, “He who did not spare His own Son but delivered Him up for us all, how will He not also with him FREELY give us ALL things!”
In the midst of our pain and sorrow, we feel the magnitude of the greatest gift in the person of Jesus Christ. Beloved, the gospel is the only thing that can stand up to hard times. No words or kind gestures offer answers to the hard questions. We need the one who is a man of sorrows, acquainted with grief (Is. 53:3-4)! The one who runs to the grieving and absorbs himself in circumstances of the sorrowful. We need strong Jesus.
Whether you are reading this as a believer or an unbeliever, the message is the same - hard times, strong Jesus - this is our only hope! Unbeliever, when times are hard, what is your strength? What is your hope? What is your peace? What do you think of Jesus? Your answer to that question defines your life and your eternity. God’s wrath is real but so is His gracious provision to satisfy His own wrath through the death of His Son in order that through Jesus you might have eternal LIFE. Death is certain for us all. We must be prepared.
Believer, we need strong Jesus everyday and it only comes through the preaching and teaching of His word. When the craziness of this world begins to invade our own souls do we fall back on who we know? Do you expose yourself to Jesus everyday? Are you under the preaching of strong Jesus? He has already borne your griefs and carried your sorrows at Calvary. He doesn’t remove them but He has redeemed them. In this hope we are saved! Worship the newborn King who becomes the suffering Servant for you and for me!
In days when joy is mingled with sorrow we need strong Jesus. ”In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” Thankfully, my victory isn’t wrapped up in how I feel but in who Jesus is! And because of Him,even in hard times, “I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Merry Christmas!
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Monday, May 4, 2015
There's still Jesus
It is always amazing to me how the Lord leads you to study the things that will prepare you for the next thing that will happen in life. Recently, I’ve been reading in Ecclesiastes. It doesn’t take much time in this book to put life into perspective...and to make you really depressed! If you read it without making it to the end then you won’t see the full picture. But let’s just say this isn’t “encouragement for a Monday” kind of stuff!
In the first few chapters, Solomon is listing out all of things that he has tried in an attempt to find true happiness in life. Chapter two reads like a modern day mini-biography of this king who amassed a fortune and achieved things that most people will never even begin to experience. Let’s just say that Solomon would be firmly placed in Forbes’ number one spot for wealthiest person in the world AND he would make Barbara Walters’ 20 most interesting people every year!
He was the model for success in the ancient world. There are estimates that say if Solomon’s wealth were translated into modern day dollars he would have been worth 2.1 trillion dollars, easily making him the richest man that ever lived! Now, to top all of that, scripture also said that he was the wisest man that ever lived. Money and brains? What’s not to love?
Fast forward to 2015. I have no way to relate to Solomon. I’m not a man, I’m not all that smart and I’m certainly not wealthy by anyone’s standards. But, I can relate to Solomon as a Mom. We know that Bathsheba was Solomon’s mother. She was the one who set up the standard of the Proverbs 31 woman that he wrote about - thanks Bathsheba! However, I am a Mom of a son. No, he isn’t king Solomon but I love him just as much as Bathsheba loved her son. So, I have to imagine that Bathsheba was proud of Solomon in his accomplishments.
You see, “we” are entering into our junior year of high school. I say “we” because this is always a family venture. If you aren’t parents yet or you have small kids, you will understand when the time comes. And with the junior year comes lots of pressure. Pressure to make the team, pressure to make a college choice, pressure to make a career choice, pressure to do well on SAT’s, and pressure to just finish well! Society has infiltrated our front doors and presses in on us and then we press in on our kids.
I will admit, I have fallen prey to this pressure and my pride as a parent has gotten in the way. As the grades come in, as the prep courses come up, as the competition gets stiff and the opportunities more expensive, the pressure to “pack it all in” gets more intense. What if he doesn’t make the team? What if he doesn’t go to Europe? What if he doesn’t make the grade? What if he doesn’t know what he wants to do? What if, what if, what if…
Then, this week, it all came crashing down and stark realities are staring us in the face and everything was brought into perspective and then this: “when high school is over, there’s still Jesus.” When all of the sports have been played, the grades have been documented, the college and career choices have been decided, there’s still Jesus. And all of the success on the field, in the classroom and in his career don’t take care of his soul. If we press in and he is successful by the world’s standards, as scripture says, “if he gains the whole world but loses his soul”, then we have failed. If he leaves our house and isn’t serving the Lord, we have FAILED.
It doesn’t matter one second after he breathes his last what his grades WERE, what his SAT scores WERE, what college he ATTENDED or how much money he MADE. At that point, it is all past tense, and then there’s the judgement. God help us! “It is appointed unto man ONCE to die and then the judgement.” Let that one sink in….
This week has been hard and so very good! Hard because of reality and sin, good because of Jesus and grace! So, the question for all of us is this: what are we raising our kids to become? What is the end result? What will be the result for eternity? Because in the end, there is still Jesus...
In the first few chapters, Solomon is listing out all of things that he has tried in an attempt to find true happiness in life. Chapter two reads like a modern day mini-biography of this king who amassed a fortune and achieved things that most people will never even begin to experience. Let’s just say that Solomon would be firmly placed in Forbes’ number one spot for wealthiest person in the world AND he would make Barbara Walters’ 20 most interesting people every year!
He was the model for success in the ancient world. There are estimates that say if Solomon’s wealth were translated into modern day dollars he would have been worth 2.1 trillion dollars, easily making him the richest man that ever lived! Now, to top all of that, scripture also said that he was the wisest man that ever lived. Money and brains? What’s not to love?
Fast forward to 2015. I have no way to relate to Solomon. I’m not a man, I’m not all that smart and I’m certainly not wealthy by anyone’s standards. But, I can relate to Solomon as a Mom. We know that Bathsheba was Solomon’s mother. She was the one who set up the standard of the Proverbs 31 woman that he wrote about - thanks Bathsheba! However, I am a Mom of a son. No, he isn’t king Solomon but I love him just as much as Bathsheba loved her son. So, I have to imagine that Bathsheba was proud of Solomon in his accomplishments.
You see, “we” are entering into our junior year of high school. I say “we” because this is always a family venture. If you aren’t parents yet or you have small kids, you will understand when the time comes. And with the junior year comes lots of pressure. Pressure to make the team, pressure to make a college choice, pressure to make a career choice, pressure to do well on SAT’s, and pressure to just finish well! Society has infiltrated our front doors and presses in on us and then we press in on our kids.
I will admit, I have fallen prey to this pressure and my pride as a parent has gotten in the way. As the grades come in, as the prep courses come up, as the competition gets stiff and the opportunities more expensive, the pressure to “pack it all in” gets more intense. What if he doesn’t make the team? What if he doesn’t go to Europe? What if he doesn’t make the grade? What if he doesn’t know what he wants to do? What if, what if, what if…
Then, this week, it all came crashing down and stark realities are staring us in the face and everything was brought into perspective and then this: “when high school is over, there’s still Jesus.” When all of the sports have been played, the grades have been documented, the college and career choices have been decided, there’s still Jesus. And all of the success on the field, in the classroom and in his career don’t take care of his soul. If we press in and he is successful by the world’s standards, as scripture says, “if he gains the whole world but loses his soul”, then we have failed. If he leaves our house and isn’t serving the Lord, we have FAILED.
It doesn’t matter one second after he breathes his last what his grades WERE, what his SAT scores WERE, what college he ATTENDED or how much money he MADE. At that point, it is all past tense, and then there’s the judgement. God help us! “It is appointed unto man ONCE to die and then the judgement.” Let that one sink in….
This week has been hard and so very good! Hard because of reality and sin, good because of Jesus and grace! So, the question for all of us is this: what are we raising our kids to become? What is the end result? What will be the result for eternity? Because in the end, there is still Jesus...
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
You Are Not Mine
This isn’t a deeply theological blog. I’m not necessarily teaching from a particular passage of scripture. Sometimes, the Lord is doing things in my life that I just want to share because I know I am no different from anyone else. If I am struggling in a certain area then I know there are others. In some way, what the Lord is teaching me may flow into your life. If it does, I am grateful that I shared. If it doesn’t then thank you for entertaining my writing.
I begin by saying this, “I will freely admit I know very little about parenting.” I’ve been doing it for over 15 years and I still don’t really know much. And, I surely don’t know as much as I did when my kids were born. So, I guess that is one thing I know...that I don’t know! I read all of these mommy blogs that give advice and tips and how-to’s and the truth is, the longer I parent the less I know! It’s like the old saying, “the older I get the less I know”, well, I can apply that across the board to most things in my life.
Some psychologist or wise sage has said somewhere that “the true definition of maturity is realizing that we know nothing.” And if it hasn’t been said, then, you can mark it down under my name. Again, I don’t think I’m so wise and there is nothing new under the sun. So, I do not come at you as a parenting expert. I’m coming as the “inept” parent. It feels good to admit that. Just know, you are forewarned before you read on!
I can say however, there are things that I am LEARNING. I surely don’t say I KNOW anything but I am in the learning process. One thing that I am learning, as of late, is that my children have their own relationship with the Lord. I know. No one is handing me the Nobel Prize for that statement. But bear with me for a minute.
When your children are little, infants, toddlers, preschool age, even though they live unto the Lord, they live unto the Lord through you. This is one of many reasons God gave children parents. As parents, we are the initial God figure in their lives. Albeit imperfect, we are there to love, disciple, correct, instruct and discipline our children as a representation of God in their lives before they are old enough to comprehend the concept of God.
Once they are old enough to begin to understand that their is a God, that He is holy, just, loving and he hates sin but provides forgiveness through Jesus, they grow to become accountable for this knowledge and their actions regarding this knowledge. Some people refer to this as the age of accountability. There is no specific age and really, every child is different. But there does come a point in time when they are able to understand and articulate the gospel and what that means for them. (Keep in mind this is a very surface level explanation.)
At this point, things begin to take on a different dynamic because now, their eyes are opened to the fact that they are living, not just unto Mom and Dad and “because I said so” but they are living unto a higher authority that we all must submit to. They become aware they are living unto God. It is at this point that by God’s grace, hopefully, they are saved.
As your children grow, in stature and in the Lord, you play less of a God role in their lives. You aren’t totally taking your hands off the wheel but your grip, your control, gradually becomes less and less. Although this is something you know is coming as a parent, you are usually looking at it from afar. The years are full of making decisions for your children: what to eat, when to eat, when to sleep, when to wake, what to wear, when to bathe, where to go, when to go etc; Almost before you realize it, you are not making these decisions anymore.
At first, you welcome the freedom of not having to tell them what to wear, when to eat, when to bathe - until the decisions become bigger decisions, things that are weightier than cheese puffs vs. eggs for breakfast. Decisions that will affect their future and sometimes their entire lives. And Moms, this is difficult! Although the days of cleaning spaghetti off of every square inch of your child, kitchen and yourself are exhausting, they are simple. Yes, simple...and fleeting, so enjoy them.
How can I say such things to exhausted Moms to toddlers everywhere? Because last week I would have given anything to just be cleaning up spaghetti! We had a very rough parenting week last week. Both of our children went through difficult situations and as parents we were struggling to make it better. We were struggling for words to say to stop the tears from flowing. We were struggling with how to fix the hurt. There is no helplessness quite like that kind of helplessness. And I spent ALOT of time in prayer. Prayer for them. Prayer for us. Prayer for others. Just prayer. It was all I could do. It was the only thing that gave me any peace..on my knees, in the car, in the shower, at my job, prayer.
As life does, last week turned into this week and the clock continues to tick and time moves on. We are moving on from last week but I have wrestled with the Lord over what this all means in my life and the lives of my children. And the Lord sweetly and quietly confirmed the novel idea that He is working in the lives of my children too. He is sanctifying them and teaching them just like He is teaching me. He is teaching them to trust Him. He is testing them. He is refining them in their young lives just as He continues to refine me.
And that leaves me with two decisions to make: will I resist the work of the Lord in the lives of my children? Will I attempt to control what He is doing in order to make life more comfortable and easier for them? Or will I TRUST Him in the lives of my children. Not just WITH the lives of my children but IN their lives. Essentially, will I attempt to resist the Spirit’s work and God’s providence in the lives of my children? Or, can God be trusted with my children?
I may not openly let those questions roll off of my tongue but they are in my heart, if I am honest. I know because many times I live as if I am saying, “Thank you Lord for saving them but I’ve got it from here! You be sure and watch over them when they aren’t under my watch and care but otherwise, I’ve got it.”
And I do that because that’s what I’ve spent their whole lives doing. The illusion of control is strong and I am deceived into believing the propaganda that I am able to field every circumstance, sin and suffering. I’ve spent their lives fixing it, deciding it and controlling it...and now those days are over. So I am grieving in a way. But I am growing too. The Lord is sanctifying me as He is sanctifying them. He is using what occurs in their lives for them and for me. And I am no longer “lord” in their lives.
I constantly have to remind myself that I am not letting my kids go but I am letting them go to God because they were never truly mine in the first place, they really are His. I’m just a steward in this life. I’m a shepherd and a teacher and yet being a mother feels like so much more. It feels like they are MINE. So, I struggle and I attempt to resist and kick against the goads and I realize, that “my arms are too short to box with God.”
This morning, the Lord led me to the story of Hannah. Here is one Mama who knew and understood that her child was not hers, that he belonged to the Lord. It says in 1 Samuel 1:24, “the child was young” when she brought him to the temple. I don’t know exactly what age but many scholars believe he was about two or three years of age, when he was weaned. And she said, “Therefore, I have dedicated him to the Lord. As long as he lives, he is dedicated to the Lord.” And she left him there.
I have to imagine that she wept as she began her journey back home. I have to imagine that she smothered him in kisses, stroked his sweet head and took one last smell of his neck before she departed. I have to imagine that she spent hours thinking of him and praying for him and counting the days until she could visit him again, once a year, at the temple. No cell phones, no cars, no email. Hannah knew something that I need to know - you are not mine!
So, I found some verses and added some phrases in that will aid me in praying and trusting, in learning to let go. Maybe you are there too - so I will share from one inept parent to another. And I say for us all, “Therefore, I have dedicated them to the Lord. As long as they live, they are dedicated to the Lord.”
“Trust in the Lord (for your children) and lean not on your own understanding (of what is going on in their lives). In all (their) ways, acknowledge Him and He will direct (their) paths. Prov. 3:5-6
Thus says the Lord: “Cursed is the woman who trusts in man and makes flesh her strength (and the strength of her children), whose heart turns away from the Lord. Jer. 17:5
“Blessed is the woman who trusts in the Lord (for her children), whose trust is the Lord (for her children). Jer. 17:7
The fear of woman lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe. Prov. 29:25
For thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.” Is. 30:15
And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you. Ps. 9:10
Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the Lord. Ps. 32:10
Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Ps. 37:3
Commit (the way of your children) to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. Ps. 37:5
I begin by saying this, “I will freely admit I know very little about parenting.” I’ve been doing it for over 15 years and I still don’t really know much. And, I surely don’t know as much as I did when my kids were born. So, I guess that is one thing I know...that I don’t know! I read all of these mommy blogs that give advice and tips and how-to’s and the truth is, the longer I parent the less I know! It’s like the old saying, “the older I get the less I know”, well, I can apply that across the board to most things in my life.
Some psychologist or wise sage has said somewhere that “the true definition of maturity is realizing that we know nothing.” And if it hasn’t been said, then, you can mark it down under my name. Again, I don’t think I’m so wise and there is nothing new under the sun. So, I do not come at you as a parenting expert. I’m coming as the “inept” parent. It feels good to admit that. Just know, you are forewarned before you read on!
I can say however, there are things that I am LEARNING. I surely don’t say I KNOW anything but I am in the learning process. One thing that I am learning, as of late, is that my children have their own relationship with the Lord. I know. No one is handing me the Nobel Prize for that statement. But bear with me for a minute.
When your children are little, infants, toddlers, preschool age, even though they live unto the Lord, they live unto the Lord through you. This is one of many reasons God gave children parents. As parents, we are the initial God figure in their lives. Albeit imperfect, we are there to love, disciple, correct, instruct and discipline our children as a representation of God in their lives before they are old enough to comprehend the concept of God.
Once they are old enough to begin to understand that their is a God, that He is holy, just, loving and he hates sin but provides forgiveness through Jesus, they grow to become accountable for this knowledge and their actions regarding this knowledge. Some people refer to this as the age of accountability. There is no specific age and really, every child is different. But there does come a point in time when they are able to understand and articulate the gospel and what that means for them. (Keep in mind this is a very surface level explanation.)
At this point, things begin to take on a different dynamic because now, their eyes are opened to the fact that they are living, not just unto Mom and Dad and “because I said so” but they are living unto a higher authority that we all must submit to. They become aware they are living unto God. It is at this point that by God’s grace, hopefully, they are saved.
As your children grow, in stature and in the Lord, you play less of a God role in their lives. You aren’t totally taking your hands off the wheel but your grip, your control, gradually becomes less and less. Although this is something you know is coming as a parent, you are usually looking at it from afar. The years are full of making decisions for your children: what to eat, when to eat, when to sleep, when to wake, what to wear, when to bathe, where to go, when to go etc; Almost before you realize it, you are not making these decisions anymore.
At first, you welcome the freedom of not having to tell them what to wear, when to eat, when to bathe - until the decisions become bigger decisions, things that are weightier than cheese puffs vs. eggs for breakfast. Decisions that will affect their future and sometimes their entire lives. And Moms, this is difficult! Although the days of cleaning spaghetti off of every square inch of your child, kitchen and yourself are exhausting, they are simple. Yes, simple...and fleeting, so enjoy them.
How can I say such things to exhausted Moms to toddlers everywhere? Because last week I would have given anything to just be cleaning up spaghetti! We had a very rough parenting week last week. Both of our children went through difficult situations and as parents we were struggling to make it better. We were struggling for words to say to stop the tears from flowing. We were struggling with how to fix the hurt. There is no helplessness quite like that kind of helplessness. And I spent ALOT of time in prayer. Prayer for them. Prayer for us. Prayer for others. Just prayer. It was all I could do. It was the only thing that gave me any peace..on my knees, in the car, in the shower, at my job, prayer.
As life does, last week turned into this week and the clock continues to tick and time moves on. We are moving on from last week but I have wrestled with the Lord over what this all means in my life and the lives of my children. And the Lord sweetly and quietly confirmed the novel idea that He is working in the lives of my children too. He is sanctifying them and teaching them just like He is teaching me. He is teaching them to trust Him. He is testing them. He is refining them in their young lives just as He continues to refine me.
And that leaves me with two decisions to make: will I resist the work of the Lord in the lives of my children? Will I attempt to control what He is doing in order to make life more comfortable and easier for them? Or will I TRUST Him in the lives of my children. Not just WITH the lives of my children but IN their lives. Essentially, will I attempt to resist the Spirit’s work and God’s providence in the lives of my children? Or, can God be trusted with my children?
I may not openly let those questions roll off of my tongue but they are in my heart, if I am honest. I know because many times I live as if I am saying, “Thank you Lord for saving them but I’ve got it from here! You be sure and watch over them when they aren’t under my watch and care but otherwise, I’ve got it.”
And I do that because that’s what I’ve spent their whole lives doing. The illusion of control is strong and I am deceived into believing the propaganda that I am able to field every circumstance, sin and suffering. I’ve spent their lives fixing it, deciding it and controlling it...and now those days are over. So I am grieving in a way. But I am growing too. The Lord is sanctifying me as He is sanctifying them. He is using what occurs in their lives for them and for me. And I am no longer “lord” in their lives.
I constantly have to remind myself that I am not letting my kids go but I am letting them go to God because they were never truly mine in the first place, they really are His. I’m just a steward in this life. I’m a shepherd and a teacher and yet being a mother feels like so much more. It feels like they are MINE. So, I struggle and I attempt to resist and kick against the goads and I realize, that “my arms are too short to box with God.”
This morning, the Lord led me to the story of Hannah. Here is one Mama who knew and understood that her child was not hers, that he belonged to the Lord. It says in 1 Samuel 1:24, “the child was young” when she brought him to the temple. I don’t know exactly what age but many scholars believe he was about two or three years of age, when he was weaned. And she said, “Therefore, I have dedicated him to the Lord. As long as he lives, he is dedicated to the Lord.” And she left him there.
I have to imagine that she wept as she began her journey back home. I have to imagine that she smothered him in kisses, stroked his sweet head and took one last smell of his neck before she departed. I have to imagine that she spent hours thinking of him and praying for him and counting the days until she could visit him again, once a year, at the temple. No cell phones, no cars, no email. Hannah knew something that I need to know - you are not mine!
So, I found some verses and added some phrases in that will aid me in praying and trusting, in learning to let go. Maybe you are there too - so I will share from one inept parent to another. And I say for us all, “Therefore, I have dedicated them to the Lord. As long as they live, they are dedicated to the Lord.”
“Trust in the Lord (for your children) and lean not on your own understanding (of what is going on in their lives). In all (their) ways, acknowledge Him and He will direct (their) paths. Prov. 3:5-6
Thus says the Lord: “Cursed is the woman who trusts in man and makes flesh her strength (and the strength of her children), whose heart turns away from the Lord. Jer. 17:5
“Blessed is the woman who trusts in the Lord (for her children), whose trust is the Lord (for her children). Jer. 17:7
The fear of woman lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe. Prov. 29:25
For thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.” Is. 30:15
And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you. Ps. 9:10
Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the Lord. Ps. 32:10
Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Ps. 37:3
Commit (the way of your children) to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. Ps. 37:5
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Me and Peter...Still Growing in Grace
As of December, the “Growing in Grace Today” blog is four years old. I have been writing at this address for four years and ALOT has been said here, not all good. Proverbs 10:19 says, “where there are many words, transgression is not lacking”, and this blog is no exception.
When I began the blog I didn’t have a real, concrete reason for starting. The main thing I wanted to do was write. And I wasn’t sure what I wanted to write about. Sometimes I wanted to write about my life. Sometimes I wanted to share funny experiences. Sometimes I wanted to use it as a platform for my angst against certain people or circumstances. Sometimes I wanted to guide others on how to be “the best Mom, wife, friend etc;” using my pompous self as the example. And on a good day, when I yielded to the Spirit, I wanted to write about Jesus.
A few months ago, I started thinking that I would erase some of the earlier posts. The posts that were the former. The posts that, looking back, I was ashamed of. I found myself using the word of God as a mallet or an axe to fell the tree of judgment and condemnation. In other words, I wanted to pretty up my blog. I wanted to make it appear as presentable as possible.
At the same time, I began to think about the name. “Is it time for a “rebrand”? I chose the name 4 years ago and the Lord has done some serious work in my life since then. Maybe, it isn’t an accurate representation of what this blog is about…”
On the contrary, that is exactly what this blog is about! I am GROWING, active present tense, I am growing in the grace and knowledge of the Lord. As Paul said to the Philippians in 2:15, “so that you MAY BE blameless and innocent, children of God, without blemish”, and then he so aptly goes on to say, “not that I have obtained this yet! (3:13)” Paul expresses my heart!
I was immature...and I still am. The difference was, back then, I didn’t see it. The older I get, the more I realize how very little I know! I can’t tell you how to raise “boys to men” because I haven’t raised anyone yet! I can’t tell you how to “have your best marriage now” because we are both still living it out. I can’t tell you how to do anything with great success, but Jesus can.
So, the older posts will stay. Some of them I really despise. Some of them show a sinful, fleshly, proud heart. Forgive me. Those are the posts where my own agenda supercedes that of the Lord. Just like Peter can’t erase some of his worst times smeared on the pages of scripture, I can’t either. They have already been read. They have already been posted for the world to see. But hopefully, people will get to this post first.
And, isn’t this some of why we identify with Peter? He is REAL! He reacts as we would. I’m sure that didn’t help to assuage the shame he felt over some of his actions. But the Lord let them stay so that you and I might know even those who are true disciples fail. No wonder he was the one who penned, “but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory both now and to the day of eternity!”(2. Pet. 3:18)
After all of this time, just this week, the Lord has finally solidified in my heart why I have this blog: to bring glory to Him! That’s it. Although there are times that I share my personal experiences and how the Lord is working in my life, all of that is simply a means of showing His grace through my inadequacies.
This blog is a means of “teaching” scripture that God might “show us His ways, that we may know Him better, in order to find favor in His sight” (Ex. 33:13). That is it! I promise I will fail at this again. But, by God’s grace, I pray it is less and less. I pray that He will use this blog as a means of sending His word forth and transforming lives as He is transforming mine. Any good you receive here is Him and Him alone. So, today and every day, grow in the grace and knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ..I’ll be right there with you!
When I began the blog I didn’t have a real, concrete reason for starting. The main thing I wanted to do was write. And I wasn’t sure what I wanted to write about. Sometimes I wanted to write about my life. Sometimes I wanted to share funny experiences. Sometimes I wanted to use it as a platform for my angst against certain people or circumstances. Sometimes I wanted to guide others on how to be “the best Mom, wife, friend etc;” using my pompous self as the example. And on a good day, when I yielded to the Spirit, I wanted to write about Jesus.
A few months ago, I started thinking that I would erase some of the earlier posts. The posts that were the former. The posts that, looking back, I was ashamed of. I found myself using the word of God as a mallet or an axe to fell the tree of judgment and condemnation. In other words, I wanted to pretty up my blog. I wanted to make it appear as presentable as possible.
At the same time, I began to think about the name. “Is it time for a “rebrand”? I chose the name 4 years ago and the Lord has done some serious work in my life since then. Maybe, it isn’t an accurate representation of what this blog is about…”
On the contrary, that is exactly what this blog is about! I am GROWING, active present tense, I am growing in the grace and knowledge of the Lord. As Paul said to the Philippians in 2:15, “so that you MAY BE blameless and innocent, children of God, without blemish”, and then he so aptly goes on to say, “not that I have obtained this yet! (3:13)” Paul expresses my heart!
I was immature...and I still am. The difference was, back then, I didn’t see it. The older I get, the more I realize how very little I know! I can’t tell you how to raise “boys to men” because I haven’t raised anyone yet! I can’t tell you how to “have your best marriage now” because we are both still living it out. I can’t tell you how to do anything with great success, but Jesus can.
So, the older posts will stay. Some of them I really despise. Some of them show a sinful, fleshly, proud heart. Forgive me. Those are the posts where my own agenda supercedes that of the Lord. Just like Peter can’t erase some of his worst times smeared on the pages of scripture, I can’t either. They have already been read. They have already been posted for the world to see. But hopefully, people will get to this post first.
And, isn’t this some of why we identify with Peter? He is REAL! He reacts as we would. I’m sure that didn’t help to assuage the shame he felt over some of his actions. But the Lord let them stay so that you and I might know even those who are true disciples fail. No wonder he was the one who penned, “but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory both now and to the day of eternity!”(2. Pet. 3:18)
After all of this time, just this week, the Lord has finally solidified in my heart why I have this blog: to bring glory to Him! That’s it. Although there are times that I share my personal experiences and how the Lord is working in my life, all of that is simply a means of showing His grace through my inadequacies.
This blog is a means of “teaching” scripture that God might “show us His ways, that we may know Him better, in order to find favor in His sight” (Ex. 33:13). That is it! I promise I will fail at this again. But, by God’s grace, I pray it is less and less. I pray that He will use this blog as a means of sending His word forth and transforming lives as He is transforming mine. Any good you receive here is Him and Him alone. So, today and every day, grow in the grace and knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ..I’ll be right there with you!
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